don't be so negative

I started writing this blog because i want my kids to read it when they get older,and I was writing 
mostly about my kids whom this is ultimately for but I was also writing a lot of negative things about my deceased wife.
Thinking back to the days that we were dating way back in 1990 we did have a lot of fun.
Her family was from Newfoundland and most of them live mostly in Toronto.
She was born and raised in Toronto it was a very hard childhood for her,her mother didn't want anything to do with her when she was born,I don't know the circumstances behind that it was always kept private.
her dad had died when she was around two or three, he drown in a small fishing boat that had tipped over,both men were drunk at the time and it was November,her father tried to save the other man but there down filled parkas were saturated with water and they both drown.
She was living with her grandparents right up until she was 17 and moved in with her sister and brother-in-law whom just had a baby.
We met in a mall that was close to my house where she worked at a lottery booth with her friend,
and she knew me from school,so we started dating,we dated for six years with a lot of talk about getting married,but never had done anything about it,mostly on my behalf i felt  that I wasn't ready,so after some thought I took the plunge.
We had a small wedding at the same church my parents were married,and our reception was held in a Newfie bar and our honeymoon was at our trailer,man talk about a low budget wedding,but it was fun.
We were married for 14 years and yeah it had its ups and downs and some very stormy parts,
but which marriage doesn't have some of those,but as we grew in our marriage we found that we were not right for each other,yeah we loved one another but we weren't ever in love.
It was like we were there just for companionship,she was a great mom i'll give her that but we were not a very good couple.I have been asked a few times if things were different would we be together and my answer to that would have been no,it was rough on the girls with all the fights and bickering and I just did not have it in me anymore.And for me to write negative stuff about someone that has passed is  wrong,
one thing that was great about all of this,
we made three of the best kids on the planet.